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Kage Jonas
17 September 2010 @ 01:07 pm
re-cap: Kage Jonas, officially 6 months on T (yays!), 2 days post-marriage (lol)

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Kage Jonas
25 June 2010 @ 02:41 am
i'll be changing my journal soon.

new username to be announced
 
 
Kage Jonas
21 June 2010 @ 10:43 pm
sorry guys, since some people seem to think that my personal opinions are offensive and don't know how to click the little "x" in the top right corner of their screen, i'm making my blog friends only. so friend me if you want to read. if not, oh well.

btw, let me also add the disclaimer that this is my blog with my personal opinions. if you don't like them, fuck you.

:) have a nice life.
 
 
Kage Jonas
19 June 2010 @ 09:45 pm
maybe i should have just posted that last entry on hatelife or something.

but i know why i feel the way i feel.

because i want it so bad.

it's so so hard to be happy for someone when they have what you want.

everyone knows how that feels. and being as drunk as i was last night...well. let's just leave it at that.

i'm not saying i hate anyone or anything, i didn't mention names.

i also said it was what it felt like.
 
 
Kage Jonas
08 April 2010 @ 12:19 am
come out to my family completed: November 2009
legally change my name completed: December 29, 2009
therapy   completed: February 24th, 2010
get letter for testosterone completed: February 24th, 2010
get a doctor/prescription for testosterone completed: March 12th, 2010
take first shot of testosterone completed: March 15th, 2010
get gender marker changed on license/ID completed: April 7th, 2010
hysterectomy/Bilateral Salpingo-oopherectomy
top surgery
metoidioplasty

So...this is all i have accomplished since November 2009. I am so proud of myself. It just feels like everything is moving waaaaaay fast when you're getting shit done.

Looking back in my transition...2007...i was coming out and unsure about anything. 6 months of hard research showed me the path i was to follow. and now, here i am. May of 2007 was when i realized i was trans and not just gender queer. so...May 2010 marks 3 years living as male.

there are guys out there bypassing the system...the system that was put in place to protect us all and make sure that you're really in it to win it...so to speak. there are guys buying street t...guys using informed consent to get t (which is not always bad) but not going to therapy...there are guys i know who think "therapy is stupid". but think about it...there are hoops to jump through with anything worth having in this life.

whether it took me 3 months or 3 lifetimes to complete everything i need to have...need to be...i would still know that patience really is a virtue.

coming out took time..took me nearly 3 years to do in itself. and then, there's completing therapy: i never knew i would be finished with it and on t. and now i am...in what seems like no time at all.

time really is your friend. all things are healed with time and all things are achieved with just a little bit of time, patience...and NERVE.

so to anyone who is just starting out, coming out, even guys further ahead than me...

just know, you can accomplish anything you set your soul to; as long as you know that you can.


-kage jonas
24 days on testosterone



 
 
 
Kage Jonas
it's been 3 weeks now on t. let's recap:
  • my voice has dropped ever so slightly
that was a pleasant change. the cracking has been not so boss, however.
  • gentials, genitals, genitals
i started out with a nice hard solid inch-ish (with the biggest of boners)...now it is as long as my pinky...so yay growth. i may even start pumping again...hopefully soon
  • libido
i had a very high libido to begin with...now...let's not even talk about how often i think about having sex...let alone how often i need to be having it to function like a normal human being *sigh*
  • hunger
i feelasifineedtoeateverythingiseeallthetime raaaawr. nom nom nom. and surprisingly, i've gained no excess weight so far *knock on wood*
  • stress management
while normally on an extremely busy day at work or in a high stress/tension situation, i tend to react more calmly now...whereas before i wanted to tear out my fucking hair. so yay.
  • strength/conditioning
i do bicep curls every morning for at least an hour (both arms, duh) with a 10lb dumbbell. 3 weeks of this...and i've gained 2 inches in bicep. yay! also, i feel stronger all-around. my hands can grip harder to pull and open things like never before. awesome!
  • hair growth
not just facial hair, but my head hair is growing faster and the texture is starting to change. i've always had sort of wiry hair (i'm puerto-rican/black...) but the texture seems to be more wavy now. more chest hair by the day and my stomach hair is becoming quickly more unruly (and my tummy has always been pretty furry)
  • dysphoria
i'm finding that i have less and less of it to deal with which is a very welcome change. i'm settling in to my skin, finally i think.
  • insomnia
not one for sleeping when i should anyway...this is not an added bonus.
  • taste-buds
this is something relatively unexpected. my doctor says it happens to everyone every 7 years or so anyway...but i just had a complete taste overhaul like 3 years ago. he says most likely this isn't a fluke. i've heard about it in 2 other transman cases before. anything highly acidic/high fructose corn syrup makes me gag a little. also, anything strongly lemon-lime is bitter-tasting now. almonds yuck. (and i used to drink amaretto-sour religiously...*sigh*) also, the taste of beer doesn't make me throw-up anymore. hmmmm.

and that's all i can think of for now. more later.


-kage jonas



 
 
Kage Jonas
11 March 2010 @ 04:50 am
i have decided now as i am quite a bit closer to starting T that I want to document my changes more than weekly.

i will be turning this blog into a day by day gradual changes monitor of my body on T. *sigh* i smell a lllllooootttttt of work, but it will pay off. i want to be able to pinpoint the exact day to the letter where i start to notice changes in my face and body...so here's to new beginnings and hopefulness!

-kage jonas
 
 
Kage Jonas
27 February 2010 @ 11:06 am
that's right....THIS GUY!!!

I made an appt. with my new doctor for March 12th....my letter's on its way to him from Cleveland as we speak...should be getting on T before the end of March!!!

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Kage Jonas
16 February 2010 @ 04:12 pm
i've decided to leave livejournal.


it seems everything i say is offensive.

living as male and performing as a transking at night...apparently...is offensive.

because "bio-men" don't king. well, i'm not a bio man....i never will be. so now i'm pissed. told by a transman...that *I* am offensive for my choice in expression. that's just bullshit.
 
 
Kage Jonas
01 January 2010 @ 03:03 pm
well everyone,i just wanted to say as of dec 29th 2009, i am legally now Kage Jonas (and of course i'm not revealing my last name, lol).

just wanted to share my excitement! and i proposed to my gf on the 29th as well, on stage in front of a ton of people...and she said yes!

so here's pics!!

Kage Jonas
23 pre-t, pre-op


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